been a while

hey sorry its been a while been a bit up and down lately what with everything thats been going off lately, but i think we're all getting there slowly the house is so quiet without kyla and a little strange ozlo seems lost and doesnt know what to do with himself and nathan keeps asking were she is but im sure things will start looking up soon.

on a lighter note iv now lost 1 stone 4 and half pounds so only 2 and half pounds to go till iv lost 1 and half stone still got a long way to go but its coming down not bad i suppose for 10 weeks!

my little boy james will be 1 on friday cant believe a whole year has gone since he was born its crazy time goes by so fast these days!

RIP my beautiful baby

01/01/07 - 21/10/09

total devastation

i received a terrible heartbreaking phone call today at around 2pm from my vet telling me he had kyla open on his table and had discovered a huge inoperable tumour on her liver so the tumours in her intestines had unfortunately spread, he then proceeded to say do you want me to bring her round or not wake her i nearly died myself and broke down on the phone i feel like iv lost one of my children my kids and my dogs are my life so someone telling me one of my babies is fatally ill and theres nothing they can do just cuts me up inside - so today 21st october 2009 at around 2pm my much beloved family pet kyla departed this world and moved onto the next - what kills even more is trying to explain to my 3 year old son whos only known life with kyla in it as they've grown up together cuz when i got kyla at 10 weeks old nathan was 8 weeks old, nathan was as devastated as me i told him kyla wouldnt be coming home and he started crying and saying my kyla and stood at the window looking for her and crying and shouting her name this tore me apart i broke down crying in the middle of my living room i cant imagine life without kyla i love my beautiful bouncing bear her nick name was kyla beanbag bear dont ask me why it just sort of happened! she was the best dog iv ever owned why did she have to go so young.... its probably karma for all those times iv given up on my old dogs in the past my untrainable destructive dogs or aggressive dogs maybe if i hadnt been so quick to get rid of those and given them the chance maybe kyla would of been given the chance of living! thats completely stupid what am i saying...... ok iv got to go now cant stop crying :'(

kyla at the vets

well been having to take kyla back and forward to the vets just lately not quite sure whats wrong one minute she seems fine next minute shes really lathargic and throwing up everywhere hope its nothing serious shes my baby dont know what id do without her and shes only young when you get a dog you expect to have it till a ripe old age not almost 3 years old thats not right! well shes in the vets tonight for observations hopefully they find what evers wrong and be able to treat it, the vet gave me a few ideas of what it could be varying from a good 'odd stomach bug that we can treat with antibiotics' to a not so good 'hemorrhagic gastroenteritis...which to us dummies means anything like tumors, an obstruction of the intestines, foreign objects and trauma' and im heart broken to say the vet things it could be the worse as her stomach and intestines feel very swollen and uncomfortable for her and her stools have quite a high blood content so its not looking good! :( but im still holding out hope for her im hoping she dont go more down hill over night because she wasnt looking so well when i took her to the vets today, the vets are going to do some blood tests and xray her intestines and stomach and have her on fluids over night and tomorrow, im hoping they'll phone me with some good news, dont think im going to sleep tonight!!! wish me luck :'(

concern

im feeling a little concerned today, my german shepherd kyla has been acting a little wierd and not quite herself which is a little worrying, shes been being sick alot and keeps barking for no reason i know this might sound like nothing to most people but for kyla this is odd behaviour i may pop her to the vets and get her checked just to be on the safe side because she does have a lump on her side so im quite worried this new behaviour may have something to do with that its probably nothing but i will see and keep you informed!

well iv been going to slimming world for 5 weeks now and lost 10 pound now i know thats not much but i suppose some loss is better than no loss, im feeling a little down at the moment and im really craving chocolate and struggling to resist! im a comfort eater and when i get low i want to eat!!! :( its so hard to resist food

well its Saturday night and im on the wine its cheap wine but its doing the trick but what i really need is some of my mates wine cuz that packs a punch..... wow that stuffs good!!!! you need to go to jopanofmanypets blog and she has loads of recipes for wine and various other stuff but its all good stuff! bring on the wine!!!!